Listening to DJ FM while my spare time in the middle of "busy day".... the DJ said "Which part of you that you proud of" ..kinda difficult quote isn`t it? what part of me? hmmm..let me think....me is : not sexy but proportional, not clever but smart, not rich but can enjoy anything, not beautiful but pretty, chubby cheek? yeah i like being MYSELF whoever i am....so ..how `bout your`s?

I FEARED BEING ALONE UNTIL I LEARNED TO LIKE MYSELF

Today`s weather : Rainy...hard rain...
just like what i feel...i`m so blue...deep blue...wondering of God playing, cuman..yah...ga bisa apa2 selain berdoa dan berdoa...wishing for the best for my future that`s all!
aku sendiri juga ga tau apa yang menuhin OTAK ini `til the tears drop by...hey suci` nangis? gpp kan? wajar kan? emg knp klo suci` nangis? it`s not the end of the world anyway...maybe i have to learn more how to be a wise human

I FEARED PAIN UNTIL I LEARNED THAT IT`S NECESSARY FOR GROWTH

Surabaya...Malang...Jakarta...Bandung...Jogja...Solo...Malang..back to Surabaya again....IN JUST 3 DAYS!!!
What a great health i ever had....tapi sumpah baru sekarang kerasa capeknya....

Sometimes i just wondering what kind of life that some busy people get with that life style, mobile life, nomaden...one side maybe it seems fun `cause u can go around the world or even around the universe but on the other side can u imagine how`s the family they leaved? how if the son didn`t recognize his Mom/Dad? how`s their future? it might be just an `ignored` problem but i think it`ll become a serious one....yeah it`s just my opinion anyway...

March 2, 2004
12:01:37 am

Father sent me a message :
Uik, Indosat just called and ask you to do the medical check at ***** Jl. Dharmawangsa tomorrow 07:00 in the morning, just prepare for it will ya!

what is it? should i happy? i don`t know...i just don`t know...just let it flow like a river..GOD give me a CLUE, please.....